I doubt anyone reads this blog anymore; in fact, in a roundabout way, I think I hope that no one reads it. This is just me, spitting my thoughts out into space - sort of a journal, but it's out there on the web in the improbable scenario that someone else wants to know what I think or accidentally stumbles across this page because they share some of my issues and/or pursuits.
Now that that is said and out of the way, here's what's on my mind now.
I hate music. I have one semester left to go before I completely my bachelor's degree, and the thought of spending 16 more weeks killing myself to pass my lessons is unbearable. I've been living and breathing music for... well, probably the last five or six years, and the pace has always intensified rather than relaxed. At this point, I'm sick of looking at a keyboard; I can't stand my music; I don't want to hear another note to analyze; I don't care who influenced what how, nor do I care why I should know about them. It's beyond tiredness (though I'm definitely tired, too) - it's that my mental capacity for music has been sated, and then some.
In sum: I'm burned out.
At least I recognize this, and I can deal with it. I know that I need a break (a complete break) from music, for at least several months. After I finish my degree, that's exactly what I'll do. Hiking, biking, writing, reading, and as little practice as possible for... oh, maybe about six months. I know I'm still going to go to grad school, and I know I'm still going to continue my studies in music - but in order to do that, I have to give myself a little room to breathe and get out of this slump. Didn't Einstein work as a clerk in a patent office after he graduated with a degree in physics? I'm no Einstein, but I think I know roughly how he felt.
One more semester. 16 weeks. It isn't really that long a time span, objectively speaking. I'll get through it. I'm looking forward to getting it over with, and I'm sure there will be a few spots in the semester that are absolutely wonderful, but I know quite well it may also be rather hellish (pardon my language, if it offends you). I will have five recitals. Five. Three for which I'll accompany, my own solo recital, and a composition recital. As I think about the sheer amount of music that I will have to know inside-outside-backwards-forwards for these recitals, my initial reaction is 1) loathing, and 2) panic. I know I will learn the music, and all will be well. I also know I will detest the process of learning this music and will likely collapse (and/or have a nervous breakdown) when I finish.
One more semester. One. More. Semester.
I may hate this at the moment, but music is still what I love. Not going to give in just because I'm burned out right now. I can do this, and I will do this.
It's time to go practice. Bach makes a wonderful main course, with a side of Bourgeois. Reger to add flavor, with a touch of Hindemith for zest. Carpal tunnel, here I come.
Wednesday, January 04, 2012
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Apologies
Apologies to anyone who frequented this blog during my extended absence (I'm hoping no one did!). Things have been more than a little out of control lately; here's the scoop:
1) I'm now a freshman (well, technically, sophomore because of the number of credits I transferred in) at CSU, maintaining a 4.0. While I'm glad my GPA is that good, keeping it that good is killing me. I never run out of things to do/finish/work on.
2) My classes are fun, but hard. I'm taking an intro to biochem class which is really fascinating, but hard to study for--and no BSing allowed on assignments. The "no BS" rule isn't too hard to follow, but it does make it so that I can't whip out the writing as fast as I normally would. My intro to music history and lit is... well... boring. I'm not sure if I could devise a more pointless use of 50 minutes every MWF. I'm sure the teacher knows her stuff, but her presentation style simply doesn't work for me. As for math... I like math; I don't like the math that I'm doing right now, because it's all with a calculator. I hate not knowing how to solve a problem algebraically.
3) I feel awful for my organ teacher and accompanying teacher. I'm so swamped with everything that I don't get in half the practice time I should. I swear, I'm doing my level best, but I'm only getting the bare minimum of practice time in.
4) Choir is going very well--though I wish I could prepare for each practice just a bit more, the choir is progressing quickly. We're on to some polyphony that's about a moderate level of difficulty (Lotti's "Miserere Mei", at the moment) and working into the harder Gregorian chant.
5) The 2009 Colloquium was something else! It was incredible... music, music, more music. I learned so much so quickly. And hanging out with friends that I hadn't seen in forever was fantastic. I'm really hoping to go this year, but I don't think it's going to happen because of the price change. It's just too expensive, and I don't think I should be spending my money on something like that right now.
6) I'm still hiking, biking, running, etc. when I can, but not as often as I'd like. I'm trying to fix this, but... honestly, it takes time, and time isn't something that I have in plenty.
7) I'm still living at home, but I'd like to move out eventually. Not necessarily because of family friction--just because I'd really like to have my own place for a while. I don't know when or if it's going to happen, but it's been in the back of my mind (sometimes the front, depending on how my day is going) quite a bit lately.
8) I. Just. Can't. Wait. For. Summer. Break. I'm on spring break right now, and it's not bad, but... it's not really a break. I have too many assignments to finish, too much practicing to do, etc. It's a break from scheduled classes, but that's all--and, to top it off, Dad assumes that I have lots of time because I don't have class. So, I'm busy with chores on top of schoolwork.
9) I miss writing. I've done very little since school started because I've been too tired both mentally and physically. Writing is one of the best ways for me to relax, though, so I'm getting even more stressed out than usual because I don't have time to write.
10) I don't know where I'm going, and I hate not knowing. While I know that God's plan has something good in store no matter what I do, I can't help being a little frustrated that I'm so clueless. Everything sounds appealing, yet at the same time, nothing does. Should I get a second major? Minor? What should it be in? I like forestry, natural resources, biology, biochemistry, GIS, computer science, and... well, you get the idea. Should I work over the summer? Study abroad? Volunteer? Just take a break? Save up for a long vacation after I get out of school, or just have fun while I don't have to pay off my loans? Should I consider grad school, or should I finish my bachelor's and RUN? ... I don't know. I just don't know.
11) Odds are... I miss you. Friends from Indy, online friends with whom I've talked for hours and hours, family from CA... I miss you. College is so faceless--they try to create community in a huge campus, but it just results in lots of very specific groups. I don't need a lot of acquaintances that I share a few things in common with; I just miss having those two or three really close friends who are always there. Currently, I only have one friend like that, and that one may be leaving in the near future.
All right, so that's what's up with me. How are you?
P.S. I'm not sure how fitting the title of this blog is. College is sapping my fizziness bit by lethal bit...
1) I'm now a freshman (well, technically, sophomore because of the number of credits I transferred in) at CSU, maintaining a 4.0. While I'm glad my GPA is that good, keeping it that good is killing me. I never run out of things to do/finish/work on.
2) My classes are fun, but hard. I'm taking an intro to biochem class which is really fascinating, but hard to study for--and no BSing allowed on assignments. The "no BS" rule isn't too hard to follow, but it does make it so that I can't whip out the writing as fast as I normally would. My intro to music history and lit is... well... boring. I'm not sure if I could devise a more pointless use of 50 minutes every MWF. I'm sure the teacher knows her stuff, but her presentation style simply doesn't work for me. As for math... I like math; I don't like the math that I'm doing right now, because it's all with a calculator. I hate not knowing how to solve a problem algebraically.
3) I feel awful for my organ teacher and accompanying teacher. I'm so swamped with everything that I don't get in half the practice time I should. I swear, I'm doing my level best, but I'm only getting the bare minimum of practice time in.
4) Choir is going very well--though I wish I could prepare for each practice just a bit more, the choir is progressing quickly. We're on to some polyphony that's about a moderate level of difficulty (Lotti's "Miserere Mei", at the moment) and working into the harder Gregorian chant.
5) The 2009 Colloquium was something else! It was incredible... music, music, more music. I learned so much so quickly. And hanging out with friends that I hadn't seen in forever was fantastic. I'm really hoping to go this year, but I don't think it's going to happen because of the price change. It's just too expensive, and I don't think I should be spending my money on something like that right now.
6) I'm still hiking, biking, running, etc. when I can, but not as often as I'd like. I'm trying to fix this, but... honestly, it takes time, and time isn't something that I have in plenty.
7) I'm still living at home, but I'd like to move out eventually. Not necessarily because of family friction--just because I'd really like to have my own place for a while. I don't know when or if it's going to happen, but it's been in the back of my mind (sometimes the front, depending on how my day is going) quite a bit lately.
8) I. Just. Can't. Wait. For. Summer. Break. I'm on spring break right now, and it's not bad, but... it's not really a break. I have too many assignments to finish, too much practicing to do, etc. It's a break from scheduled classes, but that's all--and, to top it off, Dad assumes that I have lots of time because I don't have class. So, I'm busy with chores on top of schoolwork.
9) I miss writing. I've done very little since school started because I've been too tired both mentally and physically. Writing is one of the best ways for me to relax, though, so I'm getting even more stressed out than usual because I don't have time to write.
10) I don't know where I'm going, and I hate not knowing. While I know that God's plan has something good in store no matter what I do, I can't help being a little frustrated that I'm so clueless. Everything sounds appealing, yet at the same time, nothing does. Should I get a second major? Minor? What should it be in? I like forestry, natural resources, biology, biochemistry, GIS, computer science, and... well, you get the idea. Should I work over the summer? Study abroad? Volunteer? Just take a break? Save up for a long vacation after I get out of school, or just have fun while I don't have to pay off my loans? Should I consider grad school, or should I finish my bachelor's and RUN? ... I don't know. I just don't know.
11) Odds are... I miss you. Friends from Indy, online friends with whom I've talked for hours and hours, family from CA... I miss you. College is so faceless--they try to create community in a huge campus, but it just results in lots of very specific groups. I don't need a lot of acquaintances that I share a few things in common with; I just miss having those two or three really close friends who are always there. Currently, I only have one friend like that, and that one may be leaving in the near future.
All right, so that's what's up with me. How are you?
P.S. I'm not sure how fitting the title of this blog is. College is sapping my fizziness bit by lethal bit...
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Commandment #1: Thou shalt not stray off pitch...
For it be necessary in order to gain a pure blend of voices, ay! *mock gasp*
I'm completely obsessed with choir, I know, I know. But - HOW CAN I NOT BE?! I have a great group of people to work with (enthusiastic, willing to learn, understand the basic principles of reading music and are swiftly understanding more), a great group of people teaching me, and a supply of fantastic choral music to share... I love choir. We're working on the Vaet 'O Quam Gloriosum' and Des Prez "Ave Verum". The Vaet's mostly to help them learn to listen to each other (we started that one before the "Ave Verum"); the Des Prez, to help them learn to blend (with the "Ave Verum", it really stands out if some people are singing in a different tone than others, so it's almost perfect).
--
In other news - I'M GOING TO THE COLLOQUIUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *spins around in wild, crazy-happy circles* I can't wait. Can't wait. CAN'T WAIT! 33 days!! THIRTY-THREE DAYS!!! AAAAAIIIIIIEEEEEEE!!!! MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC MUUUUUUUUSSSSIIIIICCCCC!!!!
And I'm only going to be hanging out with two of the most awesome people in the world for that week, too. I couldn't ask for more. HUR-RAH!
I'm completely obsessed with choir, I know, I know. But - HOW CAN I NOT BE?! I have a great group of people to work with (enthusiastic, willing to learn, understand the basic principles of reading music and are swiftly understanding more), a great group of people teaching me, and a supply of fantastic choral music to share... I love choir. We're working on the Vaet 'O Quam Gloriosum' and Des Prez "Ave Verum". The Vaet's mostly to help them learn to listen to each other (we started that one before the "Ave Verum"); the Des Prez, to help them learn to blend (with the "Ave Verum", it really stands out if some people are singing in a different tone than others, so it's almost perfect).
--
In other news - I'M GOING TO THE COLLOQUIUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *spins around in wild, crazy-happy circles* I can't wait. Can't wait. CAN'T WAIT! 33 days!! THIRTY-THREE DAYS!!! AAAAAIIIIIIEEEEEEE!!!! MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC MUUUUUUUUSSSSIIIIICCCCC!!!!
And I'm only going to be hanging out with two of the most awesome people in the world for that week, too. I couldn't ask for more. HUR-RAH!
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Decision
I got into both the colleges I applied to...
Now here's the fun part. I got a full ride from one, but it's not the college of my choice. My college of choice is going to be really expensive, I'll have to work over summer breaks (which means no Colloquiums, workshops, vacations, etc.), I'll have to work while in school, I won't have a car, and I'll still come out of school very in debt. On the other hand, I could go to the school that gave me a full ride, get a car, live at home, and come out virtually debt-free - but the level of education I get won't be quite the same.
HOW IN THE WORLD DO I PICK?!
(no, I refuse to flip a coin for the answer)
Now here's the fun part. I got a full ride from one, but it's not the college of my choice. My college of choice is going to be really expensive, I'll have to work over summer breaks (which means no Colloquiums, workshops, vacations, etc.), I'll have to work while in school, I won't have a car, and I'll still come out of school very in debt. On the other hand, I could go to the school that gave me a full ride, get a car, live at home, and come out virtually debt-free - but the level of education I get won't be quite the same.
HOW IN THE WORLD DO I PICK?!
(no, I refuse to flip a coin for the answer)
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Over the hills and far away...
To quote my sister, "... That's where your brain is, Sam!"
It's where I'd like me brain to be, aye.
Too much stuff going on. Well, actually, it's not going on; it's that stuff that people want me to have going on. Apparently, word's leaked out that I can both sing/cantor and accompany... translation: "SAM YOU'RE SINGING FOR THIS MASS!" or "OOH, SAM, CAN YOU ACCOMPANY US AT THIS MASS?!" or "SAAAAAAAAM YOU SOUND SO LOVELY WILL YOU PLAY A PRELUDE FOR US BEFORE OUR SERVICE?!".
I'm a STUDENT.
I'm STUDYING.
And I'M SICK OF INTERRUPTIONS.
I have schoolwork to do. I have no intention of making any more commitments. People, it just isn't going to happen.
I'm going back to algebra now.
It's where I'd like me brain to be, aye.
Too much stuff going on. Well, actually, it's not going on; it's that stuff that people want me to have going on. Apparently, word's leaked out that I can both sing/cantor and accompany... translation: "SAM YOU'RE SINGING FOR THIS MASS!" or "OOH, SAM, CAN YOU ACCOMPANY US AT THIS MASS?!" or "SAAAAAAAAM YOU SOUND SO LOVELY WILL YOU PLAY A PRELUDE FOR US BEFORE OUR SERVICE?!".
I'm a STUDENT.
I'm STUDYING.
And I'M SICK OF INTERRUPTIONS.
I have schoolwork to do. I have no intention of making any more commitments. People, it just isn't going to happen.
I'm going back to algebra now.
Monday, January 21, 2008
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You heard me, folks!
You heard me, folks!
Saturday, December 01, 2007
I'm... tired.
Life's insane. Rather than getting used to it, I'm doing the opposite - it feels like if I have one more activity or commitment that I have to think about, then I'm going to lose my mind and jump on the next plane to Alaska and live in an igloo for six months!
I don't mind the schoolwork. Heck, I like the schoolwork. It's everything else; the playing for Mass, applying to colleges, writing emails, practicing driving, babysitting, cleaning, preparing for vacations.... etc.... that are driving me crazy. And it's too icy outside right now to go running, so I can't de-stress that way - nor can I go biking or teach myself rollerblading, obviously. The only times I get outside when it's like this is when I take Kodi out on his walks.
I can't wait until I graduate (again). Just... I'm ready for another break. Ready for all these college applications to be sent in and done with. Ready to know where I'm going to go to school. Ready to have time to write again.
I'm so ready to be DONE.
I don't mind the schoolwork. Heck, I like the schoolwork. It's everything else; the playing for Mass, applying to colleges, writing emails, practicing driving, babysitting, cleaning, preparing for vacations.... etc.... that are driving me crazy. And it's too icy outside right now to go running, so I can't de-stress that way - nor can I go biking or teach myself rollerblading, obviously. The only times I get outside when it's like this is when I take Kodi out on his walks.
I can't wait until I graduate (again). Just... I'm ready for another break. Ready for all these college applications to be sent in and done with. Ready to know where I'm going to go to school. Ready to have time to write again.
I'm so ready to be DONE.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Writer's woes...
Oooooookaaaaaay. Most writers have their own individual pet peeves, but there are a few certain misspellings and errors that annoy EVERYONE. Here is a sentence that demonstrates a few of those certain errors.
"Their are two girls who enjoy taking they're mothers dog, who's collar is too tight, to the park with its owner whose always more tired than her children."
Rewrite it correctly. If you don't see anything wrong with it... a grammar book is in your near future.
"Their are two girls who enjoy taking they're mothers dog, who's collar is too tight, to the park with its owner whose always more tired than her children."
Rewrite it correctly. If you don't see anything wrong with it... a grammar book is in your near future.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Essays
I'm using my blog to study. Usually, I don't study with a computer at all, but this is an exception: I need to improve my writing, and as quickly as possible.
My writing is too murky. My meanings are ambiguous, my thesis is indistinguishable from the rest of my introduction, and my points are obscured by my language. I need to develop the habit of writing in a direct style, rather than enjoying myself and writing flowery prose. I need my writing to be more coherent and easily understood. The SAT reader who grades my essay will only have about three minutes to read my piece; I can't afford to be vague and have them wondering what on earth I'm talking about! My writing must be direct, lucid, straightforward, and hopefully interesting, and it must also demonstrate a competent understanding of sentence structure, spelling, and vocabulary.
My question to you is thus: how does the above paragraph conform to those qualities I just listed?
My writing is too murky. My meanings are ambiguous, my thesis is indistinguishable from the rest of my introduction, and my points are obscured by my language. I need to develop the habit of writing in a direct style, rather than enjoying myself and writing flowery prose. I need my writing to be more coherent and easily understood. The SAT reader who grades my essay will only have about three minutes to read my piece; I can't afford to be vague and have them wondering what on earth I'm talking about! My writing must be direct, lucid, straightforward, and hopefully interesting, and it must also demonstrate a competent understanding of sentence structure, spelling, and vocabulary.
My question to you is thus: how does the above paragraph conform to those qualities I just listed?
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Random moment
This morning, Zita came wandering up to Rebecca with a very forlorn expression. Beck, being the nice sister that she is, picked her up and asked, "what's the matter?"
Zita gave Beck a sad puppy-dog look, then told her, "I'm so hungry... I want an appetizer!"
Beck, doing her best to hide a grin, asked, "Do you even know what an appetizer is?"
Zita's response: "Uh-huh. See?!" Zita took off running for the kitchen, opened the refridgerator door, and pointed out what she wanted. "Appetizer!"
Beck: "Zita, that's apple cider."
Zita gave Beck a sad puppy-dog look, then told her, "I'm so hungry... I want an appetizer!"
Beck, doing her best to hide a grin, asked, "Do you even know what an appetizer is?"
Zita's response: "Uh-huh. See?!" Zita took off running for the kitchen, opened the refridgerator door, and pointed out what she wanted. "Appetizer!"
Beck: "Zita, that's apple cider."
Monday, October 29, 2007
Splashdown!
Okay, no 'splashing'. BUT--
WE OFFICIALLY HAVE THE LATIN MASS!
We had the first Mass yesterday evening, and the next one is in a week. After that, it'll be once a month, on the first Sunday of the month. Once we have enough people that they think can support a priest, we'll get our own apostolate up here, and our own church. Hoorah!
WE OFFICIALLY HAVE THE LATIN MASS!
We had the first Mass yesterday evening, and the next one is in a week. After that, it'll be once a month, on the first Sunday of the month. Once we have enough people that they think can support a priest, we'll get our own apostolate up here, and our own church. Hoorah!
Monday, October 22, 2007
Quote
One of my many favorite quotes... I'm curious to see if anyone knows it.
"Put on the armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we are not contending against flesh and blood, but against the Powers, against the Principalities, against the world rulers of this present darkness, against the spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places."
No googling that quote! - I want to see if you know it offhand.
"Put on the armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we are not contending against flesh and blood, but against the Powers, against the Principalities, against the world rulers of this present darkness, against the spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places."
No googling that quote! - I want to see if you know it offhand.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Sickling
I.
Am..
Sick...
So, I'm camped out on the living room floor, refusing to get up or move any more than I have to - and I'm DEFINITELY not going to eat anything for the next few days. I don't even feel like typing. Talk to y'all later.
Am..
Sick...
So, I'm camped out on the living room floor, refusing to get up or move any more than I have to - and I'm DEFINITELY not going to eat anything for the next few days. I don't even feel like typing. Talk to y'all later.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Success!
All right, I know this is minor, trivial, and in all other ways ridiculous, but...
I UNDERSTAND SINE, COSINE, AND TANGENT!!!
*dances* Hahahahaha I finally understand it! It's so simple that I can't believe it took me this long to figure it out... I don't know if I was making it too complicated in my head or what, but now that I get it it seems absurdly easy! Tangent is opposite over adjacent.... hehehehe WHOO!
I UNDERSTAND SINE, COSINE, AND TANGENT!!!
*dances* Hahahahaha I finally understand it! It's so simple that I can't believe it took me this long to figure it out... I don't know if I was making it too complicated in my head or what, but now that I get it it seems absurdly easy! Tangent is opposite over adjacent.... hehehehe WHOO!
Friday, October 05, 2007
Writing
I just started working on a lipogram for the fun of it (for those who aren't vocabulary nerds, a lipogram is a piece of writing without the use of a certain letter of the alphabet. Most lipograms don't use the letter E). So, I'm working on a whole short story with not one single E in it. Call me crazy, but it's fun. Half of the time, my first draft sentences are kinky and unreadable, but now that I've been working on it for three days I'm starting to get the hang of it.
The difficult thing: Can you imagine a fantasy story without Es?! That nixes at least half of your setting nouns! Forest, tree, palace, house, hovel, cottage, throne, castle, turret, tower, desert, vale, valley, dale, dell, dance, stone, tunnel, cave, hole.....
Not to mention that there's no "the" allowed.
The difficult thing: Can you imagine a fantasy story without Es?! That nixes at least half of your setting nouns! Forest, tree, palace, house, hovel, cottage, throne, castle, turret, tower, desert, vale, valley, dale, dell, dance, stone, tunnel, cave, hole.....
Not to mention that there's no "the" allowed.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
Music love
The soundtrack for Stardust is coming out in TWO DAYS!!! I hope I can get it from the library ASAP... otherwise, I'm sure I'll end up blowing $10 for it on my next B & N trip. And same goes for the soundtrack to Transformers! The movie was all right (nothing to write home about, I'd say, but not too bad, either), but the soundtrack was love at first hearing. Forget all the heavy metal/rock that they put into the movie; I could care less about all of that. But the orchestral score was fantastic! And, to top it all off - I'm next in line to get the soundtrack for Pirates of the Caribbean III from the library. Weeeeee.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Here we go again...
Almost time for another schoolyear to start - or, rather, time to plunge headfirst into the maelstrom of studying. School begins on the 4th. I've got vocabulary, reading, composition, religion, German, biology and chemistry, Algebra II and advanced math (pre-calc), organ, and American literature.
I don't think I'm forgetting anything...
I don't think I'm forgetting anything...
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Yiiiiiippee!!!
*raises both eyebrows and gives everyone a crazy grin* Guess what, peoples!
Gggggguueeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssss........... guess what just made my day.
hehehehehe.
*dances*
Gggggguueeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssssss........... guess what just made my day.
hehehehehe.
*dances*
Monday, August 06, 2007
Fascinations
The concept of fascinations is fascinating in itself if you think about it long enough. Every person lives for different reasons; different activities are considered worthwhile or important; even lifestyles are vastly different from person to person. Eventually, looking at these differences leads you to the root: each person's unique fascinations. Fascinations sculpt us into what we are, who we are, and who we will become.
An interesting thought, isn't it?
I'll use myself as an example. My number one fascination is, of course, God. I live my life with the sole intent to know, love, and serve him to the best of my capabilities, which mean that I do my best to hold myself to perfection (no, I don't achieve it. But I do my best). That's going to govern a lot of my actions.
Other fascinations include: music, writing, reading, exercise, and animals.
- Music will always play a huge part in my personality; while I don't listen to music constantly, and would probably be get annoyed if I did, I love to perform, listen to, attempt to compose, and learn music.
- Writing is my outlet; through it I express whatever I'm feeling at the moment, whether it be blinding rage (rare) or a newly-discovered sense of humor.
- Reading is my pasttime; whether it be in immersing myself in the confines of a fantasy world, entering the mindset of the author in an autobiography, or confining myself to a Siberian forced labor camp in a non-fiction story, I adore entering the world of the story.
- Exercise gives me energy, in more ways than one. I feel an insane thrill when racing my bike down a mountain at 35 mph, or running until my legs can hold me up no longer, or slamming down a volleyball over the net as hard as I possibly can.
- Animals are my refuge; my dog Kodi is an ever-present companion, who howls when I leave him and welcomes my return with a deep "aaawww-WROOF!". I would love to surround myself with animals, whether they be dogs, cats, or squirrels - but the fact of the matter is, I'm 17, and I don't have the money to feed a Great Dane just yet.
There's another thing that rules my life, but it's not a fascination: family. Family, though, is not about "me", therefore, I don't classify it as a fascination.
Now, that's me. My life. My loves. My world. The above fascinations are unique to me - take away one, or add one, and I'd be completely different. There are so many different fascinations that it boggles my mind: cars, racing, horses, art, money, working, sewing, watching movies... the list goes on.
And fascinations are why it's so much fun to meet a new person, too. They carry with them their own set of fascinations, some of them alike and some of them not so much like yours. It's always interesting to watch two people meet while thinking about their fascinations - it makes it into a game of predicting how the two will interact.
I won't end this by asking 'what are you fascinations?'. I could, but I see no point. Rather, I'm just going to ask you... Do you think that I believe what I just said in this post?
An interesting thought, isn't it?
I'll use myself as an example. My number one fascination is, of course, God. I live my life with the sole intent to know, love, and serve him to the best of my capabilities, which mean that I do my best to hold myself to perfection (no, I don't achieve it. But I do my best). That's going to govern a lot of my actions.
Other fascinations include: music, writing, reading, exercise, and animals.
- Music will always play a huge part in my personality; while I don't listen to music constantly, and would probably be get annoyed if I did, I love to perform, listen to, attempt to compose, and learn music.
- Writing is my outlet; through it I express whatever I'm feeling at the moment, whether it be blinding rage (rare) or a newly-discovered sense of humor.
- Reading is my pasttime; whether it be in immersing myself in the confines of a fantasy world, entering the mindset of the author in an autobiography, or confining myself to a Siberian forced labor camp in a non-fiction story, I adore entering the world of the story.
- Exercise gives me energy, in more ways than one. I feel an insane thrill when racing my bike down a mountain at 35 mph, or running until my legs can hold me up no longer, or slamming down a volleyball over the net as hard as I possibly can.
- Animals are my refuge; my dog Kodi is an ever-present companion, who howls when I leave him and welcomes my return with a deep "aaawww-WROOF!". I would love to surround myself with animals, whether they be dogs, cats, or squirrels - but the fact of the matter is, I'm 17, and I don't have the money to feed a Great Dane just yet.
There's another thing that rules my life, but it's not a fascination: family. Family, though, is not about "me", therefore, I don't classify it as a fascination.
Now, that's me. My life. My loves. My world. The above fascinations are unique to me - take away one, or add one, and I'd be completely different. There are so many different fascinations that it boggles my mind: cars, racing, horses, art, money, working, sewing, watching movies... the list goes on.
And fascinations are why it's so much fun to meet a new person, too. They carry with them their own set of fascinations, some of them alike and some of them not so much like yours. It's always interesting to watch two people meet while thinking about their fascinations - it makes it into a game of predicting how the two will interact.
I won't end this by asking 'what are you fascinations?'. I could, but I see no point. Rather, I'm just going to ask you... Do you think that I believe what I just said in this post?
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